ACCOUNTING DOWN
YES
YES
YES.

so now my mind is free from what i obligated it from
i can let it go wild and free to thinking of anything i want right now!!!!!

okay i know it sounds weird but yeah
i was trying to control my mind and focus on accounting

didn't sleep for the whole night ( ohh but i did have a little nap from 1-3am)
so......
i was literally falling asleep after i finish my paper and nearly fell to the ground.= =

so
as my life starts to go on the normal track
lectures, meetings, projects projects and projects
recently
the feeling i have whereby many things are not what it seems to be is going so much stronger day by day
i though i wouldn't have been able to accept those things ( the actual ones)
but i actually did

but to a bigger extend i did because i know why those things happened
and i mean i know doesn't mean im totally fine with what had happened
im not
to be honest
i hate it
but because i know the reasons why
the amount of hatred sets down to 0

im really considering taking up a job as a counselor
i love listening to people's problems
and giving my advice( even though it may not be the best advice)
but looking back those years
i think people did believe?

i just wanted to help
because that's all i can do